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many things happened..and im struggling to survive..

thanks Allah..

byk jgk dose yg aku buat..

ampunkan ku Ya Allah...

after a year..i think..

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh...

quite some time i didnt wrote anythings..lame tuh..dekat setahun..

berdebu,habuk silap2 ade sarang labah2 dh..

hm..as time goes on,many things happened in my life..

(eh..ter speaking pulop..hoho)

after finished my internship,going back to Kuching for my final year of study..

yg amat2 mencabar minda,jiwa,raga,mental,fizikal,spiritual dan sebagainye la..

sumpah mencabar..

dan it's really exhausting period..astaghfirullahal'azim..

bkn nk mengeluh..cume meluahkan..huhu

I ask for strength,and Allah gives me many challenges and tests to make me strong..

indeed..few things occur that really test my patience and strength..

FINAL YEAR PROJECT...

=.='...

definitely a disaster for me..

other got 50% done,while i'm just 10%..okeh la..

but when others start doing their report and i'm still crawling at the lab configuring my project,it was totally a nightmare ever..

nanges tiap ari dok lab..rase nk give up pn ade..

but,Alhamdulillah..with the bless of Mak and Abah prayer,i managed to do it.(with the help of friend of mine,MAY2)

she's the one that accompanied me in the lab.going back at 11pm.going out to city and fixing the codes,..=')huuu..

thanks MAY2..

dlm masa gile ngn FYP tu,Allah test dgn incident where my wallet,ic,handphone was lost..taken by suckendunnowho..huu..

seriously...mcm org mental dh time tu..dgn xde cash langsung nk g wat report bagai..kad bank xde..nseb korek2 ade jumpe kad BSN yg dh berkurun xpkai tu..last when i was at matriculation..

settlekn sume..pinjam duet kwn2..Alhamdulillah once again for the friendship given..thanks guys..Atul..May..mereka la yg tlh menemankan sy ke police station,wat ic sume..huu..thanks..

after sat for my the very final exams, i was just to worried..mintak2 xsangkut..nk grads gak next convo..

Alhamdulillah..rsult kua..LULUS..huhu..tp bcoz of im taking the short sem course,result for graduaton pn delay..uih.mak abah asyik dok tye jadik x convo..3weeks b4 convo then the rsult pop out.hoho..Alhamdulillah once again..managed to hold a degree on Oct 14th 2012..hehe..tiket beribu kot..*nanges..

pas konvo..giat la menjalankan misi mencari kerja..rembat je pe yg dpt..mcm2 interview g..yg kedeks ade.yg demand melampau ade..last2,dpt keje as a telemarketer kat UTS..stay kt uma akak,,tp keje tersebut tidak menepati citarasa as im going nuts everyday hearing ppl scold,saying harsh to my ears..xthn..resign..

and now..im a successful farmer,farming grapes at home.hoho..menjaga mak buyung di rumah..bile la nk dpt keje ni..='(

igt gumbire ke dok uma saje..byk target yg perlu di capai..

owh..btw..today my sister was admitted to hospital and shes now fighting to give me a niece in the labor room..huhu..

may Allah ease everything..

and the journey of my love story going up to the next stage...huhu

insyaAllah..we will be engage this coming february..

11 days to go..

hope everything went smooth..insyaAllah..

derita itu...*entry super duper pjg...

bukan mengeluh dengan takdir yg Allah dh prepare utk ak...
cume meluahkan rase yg terpendam...

hurm...
tataw nk ckp pe...
mmg jrg sgt nk mengupdate blog ni walaupun sgtttttt bykkkkkkkk mase lapang kt opis...huhu

k lets start with a story...
on Feb 17th,time tu kt opis..lebih kurang kul 11 pg..
abah msg ckp makwek kt emergency room...huh?O_O..terkejut ak..
makwek pengsan n jatuh tersembam kt uma..
sawan ag..
abah lak kat kg Batu Pahat time tu..
so,bile dpt je kol dr Comel(cousin),abah trus speed blek melaka..
mak tgh keje time tu..Comel pn kol mak gak..
mak ape ag..terkezut la..mak pn naek ambulance g amek makwek bwk g spital..
seb baek cpt..mase mak smpai tu,mata makwek dh putih je..tgn,kaki dh biru2..
bwk g spital..masuk wad..mak suh Comel kol anak2 makwek yg laen btaw pasal condition makwek..
k..ak still kt opis ag sbb abah ckp makwek dh stabil..xpyh risau..
ttbe2,ptg tu gak abah kol ckp abah jemput ak blek keje lambat cket..
sbb adek ACCIDENT!
Allahuakbar...sekaligus...terkejut2 jadiknye ak..
tp xpape..luke lame die je yg berdarah kembali..coz die bru je pas accident aritu..
k...
makwek dok wad lbey kurang seminggu lbey...first 3 days mak yg jage...pastu,makcik yg kt penang blek,die lak yg jage...
Alhamdulillah...skrg dh ok..cume die xblh penat sgt coz jntong dh xkuat..

g keje seperti biase sehingga 1 day,Feb 24th...
pagi g keje tu,pewot mmg rase uncomfortable...ciap2 dh bwk ubat g keje...
tgh2 wat keje kat opis tu,pewot saket sgt2..smpai menangis sbb xtahan...
abg ami jd cuak tgk ak nangis sbb die suh wat keje..huhu
den,sbb xtahan sgt,diorg anta ak g spital...
huhu..naek kembara telekom..
ACCUTE gastrics ngn stress eyes..
maybe sbb tgk pc lame sgt mate pn ttbe stress..
dpt mc 2 ari smpai esoknye...

jumaat....
pale rase saket sgt...tiap mase...
memule telan je panadaol sbb igt saket pale biase...
pastu...
keadaan menjadi lebih teruk,bile ak dh xdpt control saket..
dok dlm bilik..nangis..xnak abah taw...
tp abah dpt taw gak bile muke ak dh pucat lesi...
abah anta g klinik...
doc ckp kne sinusitis kot nme die...
ade fluid kat area dahi smpai idong...
tp doc pelik sbb ak xde hingus(flu) n kahak(batuk)..
tp die bg gak ubat utk cairkan kahak,antibiotik,ponstans,ubat kumur ngn panadol...
die ckp..jgn lupe mkn ubat n jgn smpai demam..t blh kne saket laen...
tp xtye lak saket pe..dh xlarat..huhu

mkn jela ubat..g keje...mate jd maken gatal...
n ttbe ade sebijik mende pelik kecil berair wujud kat btg idung..in line with mata..btl2 sblh mate..
igtkn jerawat..
tp ttbe merebak kat mate..kecil tp sgttttttttt saket..
ari jumaat kot time tu...
sabtu nk g kL..abah nk amek mak blek kursus..sambil jln2...
bwk bekal ubat g sne..igt xmo g..
tp abah suh teman..

cuace panas menyebabkan mende pelik kecil berair tersebut menjadi bertambah2 saketnye...
abah suh minum air...bergelen2 air dh minum..bergelen2 gak yg kua...huhu..
asal jumpe r&r je benti..huhu..shade tade plak tu..
nk g belii kt r&r td cam xmenarik...
tahan...

tggu abg faizal ngn akk kat istana sbb nk g skali jln...
den g la jln kt jalan TAR...mende 1st yg di beli ialah shade..
sbb mate sgt xtahan dh kne cahaye matahari...saket otak..

jln2...
ujan lebat....sampai ptg cmtu...
saket sgt2..akk g carik payung sbb abah ckp ak xblh kne ujan..t bahaye kalo demam..
tp payung xmampu menahan ujan yg sgt lebat..
basah la gak..

mak ajak g kraf convention...
tp ak ckp kt mak dh xlarat sgt..
abah ckp g je...jap je..
smpai2 kt parking lot,pak guard ckp kne ltak kete kat cni den tggu shuttle van dtg amek bwk g
klcc...
waklu...bertaon la kne tggu...
mak ckp blek jela sbb buang mase nk tggu2...
ati dh berbunge riang...
huhu..nk blek uma..
saket..

g singgah mkn jap kt area ukm..
akk ajak mkn murtabak...
mmg mabeles murtabak tersebut...tp saket tekak n saket pale n saket mate menghilangkn
selera ak...
jdik makin saket plak ttbe...
as usual...ak kalo xthn saket mesti nk nanges...
memule control je...
tgh2 mkn jadik makin laju lak airmate kua...
mak suh telan ponstan...
blek....
siyes sejokkkkkkkk gile dlm kete...gigil2...
selimut ngn telekong...

abah ckp nk anta g emergncy je kalo xthn sgt..
tp ak nk blek uma gak..

soknye bru g emergency...
time ni mmg xblh blah dh saket...mende pelik kecil berair tu pn jadik merebak sampai dlm mate,kelopak mate n pale!!
doc bg injection n surat refer tu skin n eye clinic..
okeh..diagnos as herpes zoster..aka kayap..
tp di kwasan yg agak rare org slalu kne....


Allah je yg taw saketnye...ubat jadi makin bertambah2...
mate xblh bukak..pale saket sgt2..
n selera mkn jadi xde langsung...
2minggu mc...
jadik semakin kering dh...
berat dr 55 time kt swak dlu skrg tinggal 48kg...
bygkn...
mak jadik super risau...

ak try browse cri info pasal saket ni...
n den.got to know dat sy buleh jadik BUTE sbb kne kayap kat mate!!!
Allahuakbar...mak tade pn btaw..ak tye mak pasal ni..mak just ckp ye..

Alhamdulillah...sgt2 bersyukur mate ak okeh...
Allah bg saket sbb die syg ak...
cume ade luke ag kt dlm mate ni..
ade review ag ari kames ni...31st march...

adek plak kne chickenpox...huhuhu
i've spread d virus...
cian mak abah jage kami...huhu
insyaAllah...kalo umur sy pjg...sy berjanji utk menjage mereka berdua sampai ke hembusan nafas yg terakhir....aminnnn

t continue ag...pale dh weng menghadap laptop lame sgt...huhu
wassalam....

dush!

rase cam jntung nk tercabot arini..

cam nk belasah org pn ade...

uish.

Ya Tuhan...tolongla hambaMu ini..

dh xterdaye dh..

hukhuk..

blh x nk tido je..

xpyh tpkey ag pasal die..pasal dunie ni...

so misery...

xde mood.jgn kcau.

bye.

hate that i love sooooo....=(

Hate That I Love You lyrics
Songwriters: Smith, Schaffer; Eriksen, Mikkel; Hermansen, Tor Erik;

That?s how much I love you
That?s how much I need you
And I can?t stand ya
Most everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for a while?

No, but you won?t let me
You upset me, girl, and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can?t remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can?t stay mad at you
For too long, that?s wrong

But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don?t wanna fuss and fight no more
Said, I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, boy
But I just can?t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it?s not fair how you take advantage of the fact
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rihanna-lyrics/hate-that-i-love-you-lyrics.html ]
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain?t right

And I hate how much I love you, girl
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can?t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days, maybe your magic won?t affect me
And your kiss won?t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you?ll probably always have a spell on me, yay

That?s how much I love you
That's how much I need you
That?s how much I love you
That?s how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can?t let you go
But I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so, so

please go....=(

Allahuakbar...baru2 ni..ari2 teringat kat die..every single moments...

hukhuk...nape ni..nape ni...

g la maen jauh2...

sy saket,cdey taw x....

jgn la wat sy cmni...

just go.....

when heart break normally dun break even...

besh....