derita itu...*entry super duper pjg...

bukan mengeluh dengan takdir yg Allah dh prepare utk ak...
cume meluahkan rase yg terpendam...

hurm...
tataw nk ckp pe...
mmg jrg sgt nk mengupdate blog ni walaupun sgtttttt bykkkkkkkk mase lapang kt opis...huhu

k lets start with a story...
on Feb 17th,time tu kt opis..lebih kurang kul 11 pg..
abah msg ckp makwek kt emergency room...huh?O_O..terkejut ak..
makwek pengsan n jatuh tersembam kt uma..
sawan ag..
abah lak kat kg Batu Pahat time tu..
so,bile dpt je kol dr Comel(cousin),abah trus speed blek melaka..
mak tgh keje time tu..Comel pn kol mak gak..
mak ape ag..terkezut la..mak pn naek ambulance g amek makwek bwk g spital..
seb baek cpt..mase mak smpai tu,mata makwek dh putih je..tgn,kaki dh biru2..
bwk g spital..masuk wad..mak suh Comel kol anak2 makwek yg laen btaw pasal condition makwek..
k..ak still kt opis ag sbb abah ckp makwek dh stabil..xpyh risau..
ttbe2,ptg tu gak abah kol ckp abah jemput ak blek keje lambat cket..
sbb adek ACCIDENT!
Allahuakbar...sekaligus...terkejut2 jadiknye ak..
tp xpape..luke lame die je yg berdarah kembali..coz die bru je pas accident aritu..
k...
makwek dok wad lbey kurang seminggu lbey...first 3 days mak yg jage...pastu,makcik yg kt penang blek,die lak yg jage...
Alhamdulillah...skrg dh ok..cume die xblh penat sgt coz jntong dh xkuat..

g keje seperti biase sehingga 1 day,Feb 24th...
pagi g keje tu,pewot mmg rase uncomfortable...ciap2 dh bwk ubat g keje...
tgh2 wat keje kat opis tu,pewot saket sgt2..smpai menangis sbb xtahan...
abg ami jd cuak tgk ak nangis sbb die suh wat keje..huhu
den,sbb xtahan sgt,diorg anta ak g spital...
huhu..naek kembara telekom..
ACCUTE gastrics ngn stress eyes..
maybe sbb tgk pc lame sgt mate pn ttbe stress..
dpt mc 2 ari smpai esoknye...

jumaat....
pale rase saket sgt...tiap mase...
memule telan je panadaol sbb igt saket pale biase...
pastu...
keadaan menjadi lebih teruk,bile ak dh xdpt control saket..
dok dlm bilik..nangis..xnak abah taw...
tp abah dpt taw gak bile muke ak dh pucat lesi...
abah anta g klinik...
doc ckp kne sinusitis kot nme die...
ade fluid kat area dahi smpai idong...
tp doc pelik sbb ak xde hingus(flu) n kahak(batuk)..
tp die bg gak ubat utk cairkan kahak,antibiotik,ponstans,ubat kumur ngn panadol...
die ckp..jgn lupe mkn ubat n jgn smpai demam..t blh kne saket laen...
tp xtye lak saket pe..dh xlarat..huhu

mkn jela ubat..g keje...mate jd maken gatal...
n ttbe ade sebijik mende pelik kecil berair wujud kat btg idung..in line with mata..btl2 sblh mate..
igtkn jerawat..
tp ttbe merebak kat mate..kecil tp sgttttttttt saket..
ari jumaat kot time tu...
sabtu nk g kL..abah nk amek mak blek kursus..sambil jln2...
bwk bekal ubat g sne..igt xmo g..
tp abah suh teman..

cuace panas menyebabkan mende pelik kecil berair tersebut menjadi bertambah2 saketnye...
abah suh minum air...bergelen2 air dh minum..bergelen2 gak yg kua...huhu..
asal jumpe r&r je benti..huhu..shade tade plak tu..
nk g belii kt r&r td cam xmenarik...
tahan...

tggu abg faizal ngn akk kat istana sbb nk g skali jln...
den g la jln kt jalan TAR...mende 1st yg di beli ialah shade..
sbb mate sgt xtahan dh kne cahaye matahari...saket otak..

jln2...
ujan lebat....sampai ptg cmtu...
saket sgt2..akk g carik payung sbb abah ckp ak xblh kne ujan..t bahaye kalo demam..
tp payung xmampu menahan ujan yg sgt lebat..
basah la gak..

mak ajak g kraf convention...
tp ak ckp kt mak dh xlarat sgt..
abah ckp g je...jap je..
smpai2 kt parking lot,pak guard ckp kne ltak kete kat cni den tggu shuttle van dtg amek bwk g
klcc...
waklu...bertaon la kne tggu...
mak ckp blek jela sbb buang mase nk tggu2...
ati dh berbunge riang...
huhu..nk blek uma..
saket..

g singgah mkn jap kt area ukm..
akk ajak mkn murtabak...
mmg mabeles murtabak tersebut...tp saket tekak n saket pale n saket mate menghilangkn
selera ak...
jdik makin saket plak ttbe...
as usual...ak kalo xthn saket mesti nk nanges...
memule control je...
tgh2 mkn jadik makin laju lak airmate kua...
mak suh telan ponstan...
blek....
siyes sejokkkkkkkk gile dlm kete...gigil2...
selimut ngn telekong...

abah ckp nk anta g emergncy je kalo xthn sgt..
tp ak nk blek uma gak..

soknye bru g emergency...
time ni mmg xblh blah dh saket...mende pelik kecil berair tu pn jadik merebak sampai dlm mate,kelopak mate n pale!!
doc bg injection n surat refer tu skin n eye clinic..
okeh..diagnos as herpes zoster..aka kayap..
tp di kwasan yg agak rare org slalu kne....


Allah je yg taw saketnye...ubat jadi makin bertambah2...
mate xblh bukak..pale saket sgt2..
n selera mkn jadi xde langsung...
2minggu mc...
jadik semakin kering dh...
berat dr 55 time kt swak dlu skrg tinggal 48kg...
bygkn...
mak jadik super risau...

ak try browse cri info pasal saket ni...
n den.got to know dat sy buleh jadik BUTE sbb kne kayap kat mate!!!
Allahuakbar...mak tade pn btaw..ak tye mak pasal ni..mak just ckp ye..

Alhamdulillah...sgt2 bersyukur mate ak okeh...
Allah bg saket sbb die syg ak...
cume ade luke ag kt dlm mate ni..
ade review ag ari kames ni...31st march...

adek plak kne chickenpox...huhuhu
i've spread d virus...
cian mak abah jage kami...huhu
insyaAllah...kalo umur sy pjg...sy berjanji utk menjage mereka berdua sampai ke hembusan nafas yg terakhir....aminnnn

t continue ag...pale dh weng menghadap laptop lame sgt...huhu
wassalam....

dush!

rase cam jntung nk tercabot arini..

cam nk belasah org pn ade...

uish.

Ya Tuhan...tolongla hambaMu ini..

dh xterdaye dh..

hukhuk..

blh x nk tido je..

xpyh tpkey ag pasal die..pasal dunie ni...

so misery...

xde mood.jgn kcau.

bye.

hate that i love sooooo....=(

Hate That I Love You lyrics
Songwriters: Smith, Schaffer; Eriksen, Mikkel; Hermansen, Tor Erik;

That?s how much I love you
That?s how much I need you
And I can?t stand ya
Most everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for a while?

No, but you won?t let me
You upset me, girl, and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can?t remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can?t stay mad at you
For too long, that?s wrong

But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don?t wanna fuss and fight no more
Said, I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, boy
But I just can?t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it?s not fair how you take advantage of the fact
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rihanna-lyrics/hate-that-i-love-you-lyrics.html ]
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain?t right

And I hate how much I love you, girl
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can?t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days, maybe your magic won?t affect me
And your kiss won?t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you?ll probably always have a spell on me, yay

That?s how much I love you
That's how much I need you
That?s how much I love you
That?s how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can?t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can?t let you go
But I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so, so

please go....=(

Allahuakbar...baru2 ni..ari2 teringat kat die..every single moments...

hukhuk...nape ni..nape ni...

g la maen jauh2...

sy saket,cdey taw x....

jgn la wat sy cmni...

just go.....

when heart break normally dun break even...

besh....

after a very longgggg period of time....

sungguh lame ak meng update blog ini..

bersawang2 bagai...spiderman pn boleh sesat..kihkih

mmg lame la xupdate..

byk mende dh berlaku..

kalo ak rajen menaip mesti dh buleh wat novel dh mende2 yg ak nk story..

lebih tebal dr nobel harry potter kot..weeee

hurm...dr mne nk start ney ek??

mungkin dr melaka??sarawak??

xpela..ckit2 ak story smpai la saat dan ketika ini...cehhh..ketidakboleh blah an..

k.....

actually skrg ni tgh practical kat TELEKOM,MITC..

yang akan berterusan selama 6 bulan...

6 BULAN wey!!!!!!

bkn 6 ari ke 6 minggu...

hurmm...dh dpt blek kg,rindu plak kat member2...

manusia2...xpena nk syukur..

syukur..Alhamdulillah..huuuu

tp mmg rindu kat mereka...

PUTEH....

0sm8....

skot2....

dan sesiape yg berkenaan..huhu

kalo nk list byk sgt..

sebelum blek cni,ku kne meredah training 4 about 2weeks..

pehh...mcm2 jd la...

1st day dh dpt adiah..huhu

akibat meniru aksi monkey ketika wat monkey rack kat track

ORC Unimas,kaki ku terseliuh...huhu

wat2 tenang je...maintain..

tp efek die adelah ari berikutnye..

ak xblh nk lari langsung!!

dasat x???

x eh??

hukhuk..saket gile kot..

nk hentak kaki pn xblh..

tp dgn azam di dada dan di kaki,

sume pertandingan ak join walaupun dh ditegah dan juge di MARAH..

huhuhu..

last dh ni kot..

pasni xde dh..

join gak..

pertandingan kawad...

no 2...

actually mule2 ak dh disqualified coz xdpt nk hentak kaki..cdey kot..

tp ak msuk gak diam2..ganti miza inter..

kne mrh..=(

argh..xkesa la..

pertandingan jalan laju...

no 4..gile seksa jiwa rage time ni...

kaki ku saket cam nk tercabut segala urat,otot,tulang la..

tp ku teruskan jua...tanpe meletak beg pack...huh..

kepuasan utk diri sendiri..

alhamdulillah..smpai gak garisan penamat..

pertandingan map reading...

no 1 sepatutnye...tp disebabkan silap phm yg sengaje disilapkn...

redha je la dpt no 3 pn..

time ni pn dh azab..

selut,paya xabes2...

pastu,time terhentak kat batu ke kayu ke mesti kne kat kaki yg saket..

dh..terhencut2 ak jln..

pastu ditambah lak ngn kne sengat tebuan lagi..

pehhhhhh!!!!!

siyes saket..

tgn jd kembong,gemok gle..

kebas satu tgn..

rse nk give up ar gak sbb dh xtahan sgt..

smpai mkn ubat tahan sakit..

ciap tertido kot time tgh redah paye...

sorang tarik depan..

sorang ag tolak dr blkg..

nk cpt smpai pye pasal..

alhamdulillah we manage to smpai gak kat uitm..

smpai je kolej,pale otak dh serabut.

sok nk blek dh kot..

brg2..

uma...

cam tongkang terbalik-balik...

haaa..

bkn sekali je terbalik...berkali2..

bayangkan..

mesti xpat bygkn..

org yg seangkatan ngn ak je dpt bygkn keadaan uma ketika itu...

erkkk

byk sgt mende ak tertinggal..nsebbaek passport xtinggal..

kalo x...

hurm...

pe lagi mau cer ek?

luv story kot...

dh xde mende dh nk di story kn...

huhu..

cdey pn xgne..

saket diri sendiri...

*cakap besar ckit..xmo opis ni banjir...

hukhuk...

dh lme blhla ckp camni...

on dat day.....Allah je yg taw..

on dat day gak dpt brite mak masuk ospital kne serangan jantung...

and next 2 days ak ade final exam...

Allahuakbar..

saket sangat rase..

tension gile..

sehari ak xblh nk jamah makanan..

sehari gak ak x kua bilik...

nk study xpat concentrate langsung...

actually ak should be ready for this sbb dh taw dis things likely to be happen..

tp maybe time tu bak kate org tgh dikaburi oleh ayat2 cinta...

percaye la bulat2...

nme pn dh syg kn...

hurm..sokey..still can be forgiven..but then..

bile die nk ckp nk pegi,ati ak cam nk tercabut...

on the reason that i'm too good for him..

and i'm deserve a much more better person than him..

n he don't want to hurt me anymore..

excuses cap ayam..

kalo camtu..xpela..xde jodoh kn..

go find some one yg same as you are..

and..

don't ever knock me okeh..

ak bkn recycle bin..blh restore2...

enough for what i've given..

nk kawan,kawan..tp dun hope for more k.

xphm la species mereka ni..

+_+~~

pape la...cdey pn xgne..

hurm..suddenly gak,ramai plak ttbe approach...

erkkk?????

apekah????

unexpectable pn ade...

diorg ni taw ak dh break ke ape?

xperlu la...

i think i dun need 'those' things for this moment..

HIKMAH disebalik sume ni...

ak jd semakin dekat dgn ALLAH...

dan rase kebergantungan ak semate2 kpd ALLAH...

ALLAH berikan ak petunjuk yg ak dh semakin jauh dgn NYA...

Ya ALLAH....

ampuni hamba mu ini...

berikan ak kekuatan dan permudahkan segala urusan ku...

Alhamdulillah...

ak dh blh concentrate dgn study dan exam...

mmg ak study kaw2..

sampai saket2..

all that memories bkn senang2 nk ilang..

sumtimes it cross on my mind...

cpt2 istighfar...

xpela..redha dgn sume ni..

okeh...

-CASE CLOSED-

ckup dh kot cite jiwang2,cdey2,mkn ati...

let bygone be bygone..

hidup mesti diteruskan..

alhamdulillah sekali lagi..bile result ak okeh..

Syukur sgt2..

hurm..sungguh byk ak membebel..ckup kot arini..

sok ade cite best..hehe

tggu...